Wow!

Its been a crazy past few days..but I have to be getting off to bed, because I go back to work tomorrow.

Whats that you say? It's Wednesday, and you should have been back on Monday?

Yes, you are right! I was supposed to be starting out my week on Monday, but thanks to Tropical Storms and flooding that was not the case.

I also celebrated my birthday, and was planning on a very low key kind of celebration.

My love thought differently, and threw me a surprise party!

Like I said, lots to talk about...Be back soon...

First day..DONE

Not much to say tonight, except the first day of school is over.

My son went to kindergarten today, and I was a bit nervous. We met his teacher last Friday, and to say he is  kinda in love with her, is an understatement. I would be lying through my teeth if I said I wasn't slightly jealous...I am glad thought that he likes her. He is, fo' sho', my child, and when he does not like you, well, that's that. When I picked him up, he was all smiles and kisses. He told me that he had fun and he enjoyed lunch!
My day back was great as well. It seems that this years bunch is mellow, and willing to learn. I do hope this is not the "honeymoon" phase, and it really is like this. One kid even walked up to me at the end of class, and said " I really like you"....Wahhhhh...that was what I was thinking! First meeting, and you likes me! Sweet!

Tonight is the season finale of Chicagoliscious, and I will probably watch it either tomorrow or this weekend. I am so tired and so drained. I had to not only worry about my students, but my lil' man in his new place. I tell you, a woman's work is never done....

Previously,

I talked about how I did not know how to incorporate work topics in my entries. I talked about how it may be inappropriate. Legal stuff and what not. I am still at battle with the thought of it, but I have come to some sort of conclusion. I really shouldn't mention work too much on here anyway. This is my freedom from work. I should talk about what is going on in the news ( what IS going on in the news today?), I should talk about....TV! Speaking of TV, Chicagolicious last episode is next Monday. Do you think Macray is going to tell his mom? Is Q gonna be out? Oh, the suspicion! 

I really do not have anything to say today, and I may not be back on until Sunday, but I did want to talk about crossing the line, and this blog. I am still working through my thoughts, and I am still wondering if anyone even cares about what I have to say, but I know I challenged myself when I started this thing. And I plan on seeing it through. 

Well,

I went back to work today. I am not due in till tomorrow, but I went back in today to get a jump start......

I am stressed the &^%$ out already!

Give me a drink, will ya?

In other news...Come on peeps, you already know the drill! It's Monday!!!

If you are still not with the program google the name "Macray" and "Style Network" and see what pops up ummk? Get Nasty!

Upside Down Smile

Yeah, just as the title states. I have an upside down smile. Why? Summer is over for me.
I am going back to work a day early, so that I wont feel as though I am being rushed (read: I will be rushed ALL DAMN WEEK).  As I have mentioned before, I earn a living by being a leader *teacher. Anyone who knows anything about this profession can relate to how I feel at this exact moment. You heart is starting to beat just a bit faster, your dreams at night have started to shift to lesson plans and reading passages versus dreaming about happy hour and a nap at 2pm. You have to remember to do things, like shave your legs, and polish your toes (yup, the kids will ask you what's up with your feet! They really stare at you).

Awhile ago, this time of year always made me nervous. Stage fright is what some would call it. I used to be extremely nervous that first day of school before my kids would walk through the door. True fact: My first year teaching, when my first hour walked in I stared at them for about five minutes straight. No hello, nothing! Just stared. Can you say freaky? I have since gotten a lot better about it. There are some tricks that I use to cope with first day jitters for me as the teacher, and my students. I will talk about them some day here. Its nothing etched in stone, but I have found that if I have a game plan, and if something gets 'effed up, I don't look stupid in front of my kids.

Where was I going with all of this?? Who the hell knows, roll with it...

So, summer is coming to an end. I will have to rely on my DVR. I will have to give up my 2pm naps in the afternoon, I will have to rely on Instagram to see what's going on with my friends and other blogs. On the flip side, I am planning to change up some of topics and lessons, and I am even planning on reading a new novel with the kids. Sounds kind of boring to some people, but this is my bread and butter we are talking about. This is the part of the job that I LOVE. I just hope that this year brings in some moldable (is that a word?) students. Notice I did not say "nice students" or "well behaved". Again, if you are familiar with how this story goes as a teacher, you know that smug ass kids are always right around the corner. You also know that "nice" can mean " I wont cuss you out today"...I will stick with my new word: moldable.

I had a great summer though. I can't even lie about that. I did not document all of my summer on the blog, because I didn't do anything that was THAT exciting. It was just a great time to watch my son grow up, spend some much needed time with his dad. You tend to get caught up in the cycle of work throughout the year, and you take your family for granted. I am going to try my best to not save that for the summer anymore. But to really appreciate what I have throughout the year. I got a lot of rest. I can say that I am ready to take on a new year. And for what I hear, I am glad I took 2pm naps.

Here's to a new year. Bring it. I never back down to a challenge.


* I scratched out leader and wrote teacher. I did this because some days I feel like a leader and some days I just feel like a regular teacher. To further explain that, some teachers feel like babysitters, and they feel like they are not being leaders. That all we are doing is just providing a service for about eight hours a day. There are days you look out to your classes, and you may think "Do you even hear me?" Those are the days that my leader hat falls short. Those are the days that I ask myself why am I doing this? For this amount of money, and all my effort. Those are the days that I feel like a failure. But then, at the the end of the day, I take off both those hats, leader and teacher, and I just go home. Tomorrow, I will try to wear my leader hat the entire day. 

Do I Even Need to Say It?!

It's Monday...

Have you started watching yet? I know you have. You had too, I mean, really, why would you not want to?

What the hell am I talking about, you ask...well let me refer you to here and here.

Do you get it now? Of course you do! I bet you are wondering why do I keep talking about this show. It is reality t.v after all, but the truth of the matter is, that it is funny as hell! Anyone that knows me, knows that after this week, I will not look at television unless it is the weekend. There is a pretty strict routine and schedule around here during the school/work week. So I have to soak it in while I can. After this week, I will have to rely on my DVR to work its magic, and then watch everything between Saturday and Sunday.

Sounds so depressing right? ...sigh...Who you tellin'

But anyways, watch the damn show!

P.S. I am still thinking/meditating on what to do about the content of this blog once I return back to work. I still do not have any answers. If you are curious or care about what it is I am talking about, refer to yesterdays post. Please, if you happen to stop by and read it, share your thoughts. I am curious to know how some would handle this.

UPDATED ON 08/07/12: W. T. F..... WTF, why didn't Chicagolicious not come on?! why is the network 'effing with my emotions? Someone, please, tell me what happened, cause I am PISSED! 

Time is running out...

In a short time, I will be back to work.
For those of you who have read or even care about what it is I do, you know that I am a teacher.
I wont elaborate much on where and what I teach, but that's how I make my bread and butter.
I am a bit conflicted when it comes to over sharing in this area. I love my job, and therefore want to keep it. However, it is a HUGE part of my life. I mean, I spend well over eight hours a day there. I am not sure exactly how I will document my time there on the blog just yet. I need to work that out.
Some of the things that take place at work are just worth sharing. I mean, there are days when your students are just on point, and your like, "fo' realz, you listening to me!" and then there are days you are like "slit my throat! NOW!"...
Yeah, I need to work this shiz out...

Right now...

Its after 9:30pm, and my son is up..watching Spongebob...and screaming.

There are Sex and The City re-runs on my television right now.

I am almost done reading Miss Peregrines Home For Peculiar Children.

I am also currently wondering about a dress in my closet... I'm wondering if it fits..properly..If it does, then I can wear it for cocktails tomorrow.

Why is my son still up?

My left leg/thigh hurts.

Is he jumping on the bed again??

I ate half a pint of ice cream tonight...dress,maybe not...

DAMMIT, HE IS JUMPING ON THE 'EFFING BED..AGAIN!

Ill work the rest of this shit out tomorrow